Hold your hands tight, say your prayer, and believe in God.
Few weeks ago I told my friend something that i never told anyone before...
"When I pray, I never ask God for anything. But if I asked, He will answer."
That Sunday in Manchester, in that tiny little church, I saw my friend cried.
I was heart broken seeing her sobbing like a baby in her best friend's arm.
So i sat down and prayed.
I ask God to bless her, to give her strength for her 2nd job interview,
and more importantly i ask God to give her the job.
This song "I dreamed a dream" has a special meaning in my life.
As an introduction, this song is one of the song in the Les Miserables musical. It was first recorded during the 1980's. And it so happened to be my ex-girl friend most favorite song.
This young girl whom i met during the year 2005 in a hospital, she was a patient in that hospital and i was a volunteer. We met on a bench while i was having my lunch, and she was just wondering around the hospital.
Back in 2005 i was a problematic young boy, i was not happy with my life, i was not happy with how i look, basically i was not happy with anything. And YES i was suicidal. But when i met this young girl everything changes.
To cut the story short, I fall in love with her, and she with me. But sadly, she was not around for long.
We had a great time before she went away. And of course the whole reason why she love the song "I dreamed a dream" so much is because of the condition that she is suffering. She told me that the song is singing about her life and her suffering.
She always say that when she gets better, she wanted to visit London. And if she is still here today, i would have watch it with her that day.
During my winter holiday, i decided to visit Wigan and London.
These 2 places (particularly the song "I dreamed a dream" ) brought back a lot of memories about her.
While i was walking on the quiet street of Wigan town, i heard a beautiful voice singing a familiar song, a song that i refuse to hear after she left, a song that i wanted to forget. It way Kyla Lingley an opera singer, singing the song I dreamed a dream on the street. Kyla has devoted her time when she is not performing in show and concerts, to raise money and awareness for charity Breakthrough Breast Cancer by giving outdoor performances in town/city.
When i was in London, i saw the LED display on Queen's Theater It was the song - I dreamed a dream. i couldn't help my self and bought a ticket to the play. It was awesome by the way.
No matter where i go, i will be reminded of her. I was reminded of a broken heart that i once experience. No matter how i run, i can never out run the truth.
But now, it is different... It show me how to feel love like i once did.